Rub your face in what? Me being a violent prick?
I’ve had a compound fracture in my jaw along with a clean break, wired shut for a month. I’ve had my ass kicked in more fights than I have won, been KO’d more than once in my life. My temper is not an asset for me it is a liability. It’s part of the reason I’m seeing a CBT(cognitive behavioral therapist) who deals with people like me. Severe anger issues, childhood trauma, domestic violence incidents, etc.
I have no doubt you have experienced similar crap to me if your mind automatically goes to those violent thoughts, even over a hypothetical.
Your an older man and in some areas it was common place to abuse boys to toughen em up, my environment was the same with my older brother who couldn’t stand having a queer younger brother at a young age.