a911scanner
Well-Known Member
As a ft cover/utility of just over a year, I too have a similar daily reaction as the op. Rip me all you want, but I guess that's just the way I am.
I will say, that after the first 6 months, I seem to have found a "groove" for myself and am a bit less stressed most days unless going on a brand new route I've never done. Then my stress level goes up again. Maybe I'm reminded of the feelings I had when I was brand new and thought I would never get it?
I have come to the conclusion (for myself) that I will never be as good as management expects me to be, and I will never have a "regular" schedule. Since I have gotten appreciably better at the job since I started, the thing I am most concerned about is beating sundown. If I can do that today (or come close) then I win for today.
And Jesus is my co-pilot, so that helps a lot too.
I will say, that after the first 6 months, I seem to have found a "groove" for myself and am a bit less stressed most days unless going on a brand new route I've never done. Then my stress level goes up again. Maybe I'm reminded of the feelings I had when I was brand new and thought I would never get it?
I have come to the conclusion (for myself) that I will never be as good as management expects me to be, and I will never have a "regular" schedule. Since I have gotten appreciably better at the job since I started, the thing I am most concerned about is beating sundown. If I can do that today (or come close) then I win for today.
And Jesus is my co-pilot, so that helps a lot too.