Couldn't have said it better myself Jangles. I was raised as a social security kid by my grandparents who didn't really didn't have a pot to piss in, while mommys boy going to private school dad was mia, along with drug attic mom who ive seen 4 times in 38 years was mia also. All I know is to stay hungry, im like a stray dog who hasn't ate in a week, super hungry all the time, and that feeling will never go away or be lost in my inner conscious. Lifes valuable lesson learned at a very young age. Sucked going through it but that lesson I learned and endured only made me a super strong soldier mentally.